I suppose I should explain the unlikely story of my
conversion. But then again, it also
makes perfect sense. I was actually
baptized a Catholic when I was an infant.
I had my First Communion, First Confession, and then a lot of things
changed. My parents’ business started to
fail, and my dad became involved in a circle of friends who shared some very
charismatic Christian perspectives, including some very anti-Catholic
claims. He stopped going to Mass, and
started taking my sister and I to his newfound Assemblies of God church. For a while my sister and I would sing along
with the Hallelujah shoutin’ Evangelicals and listen to a long fiery sermon,
and then be scooped up just in time for Mass at noon with my mom. Between the financial hardship and the sudden
split in religious views, it was a tremendously difficult strain on my parents’
relationship. Eventually my mother
stopped taking my sister and me to Mass, as she had little argumentative power
against some of my father’s outrageous claims and sensationalist
information. Additionally, the loud and
enthusiastic praise service and the unapologetic sermons in our new church led
me to believe that the Assemblies of God churchgoers had far more fervent
passion and enthusiasm for Christ.
Eventually the solemnity of the Catholic Mass represented to me dull,
senseless religiosity and empty man-made traditions. In short, a dying Church.
Of course, since returning to my Catholic roots have I ever
met such genuine and intelligent friends, devoted to excellence and classy in
their everyday work. Friends who share
my faith are unafraid to admit their struggles, trusting that God is bigger and
they are a work in progress. Virtue and
character are a major part of their faith formation, and their passion and
determination to live in such a way automatically exemplifies itself as
authentic, which has been much more attractive to me than the most charismatic
and Bible-thumpin’ Christians I’ve met.
I will never say that I regret the time I spent growing up with the
Evangelicals, nor will I ever express my gratitude that God “saved me” from
such a background. The truth is, I never
would have wrestled so long and so hard with Catholic doctrine had it not been
for the fire and urgency for Jesus that I encountered in the Assemblies of God. But I will admit that I believe becoming (or
returning) a Catholic is God’s Will for my life, and I have never experienced
His grace as I do living my newfound (or newly re-found) faith.
Conversion part 2 coming soon…
No comments:
Post a Comment